it rained today... sigh...
two things happened which made me feel a bit down at the moment...
you called me out of a sudden... asking me to go out... as much as i loved to, i cant... because i know my parents would not like the idea of me hanging around outside...
and it is not your fault... is mine... recently, i have been staying outside till quite late than go home... moreover, i had already agreed to someone else that i will be with them later...
however, i still chose to join you even though i know i will be late meeting them and the risk of getting home late again which might strain my relationship with my dad further...
i was hoping at least you will appreciate it since you know about my situation...
began rushing in the afternoon after the event ended this morning... i left and hurried to you despite it was raining and i did not bring an umbrella... was quite soaked when i reached lavender station...
nonetheless, i still came...
you said you would show me how to train and teach me how to improve... but when i reached there, all you did was only teaching me one thing (after my asking) and went on to do your stuffs...
i was there alone, all by myself...
waited for you to teach me but you kept yourself occupied...
when i needed to go off, you said you will come along with me as well... i thanked you for your kindness... but the thing is...
you kept delaying the time... you said for a little while more... but it seems like you proceeded on to do another round of few more sets... i remained quiet...
on the way out, i wanted to watch the badminton people play for a while too but you walked away...
i wanted to watch the hockey match for a while too... how often do you see people playing hockey? and the fact that i decided to join hockey even though i am very noob at it so i wanted to see the match to have a feel of how is it like and perhaps learn something from it and gained experience... and than...
you suggested the idea of going off first...
o_O.?!
what can i do? ask you to wait for a while too..? no choice mah... i want to see the match but you wanted me to go with you... so i refused loh...
and off you went...
i was there watching the match... alone and all by myself again...
it did not take long before i leave... one of the team scored the first goal and i felt that i had watched enough...
couldnt you just wait..? when you say for a little while more i oso did not reali complain or do anything...
i reached the stadium and saw the whole bunch of you all leaving...
soon after, it began to rain heavily... i only ran 1 round...
pathetic...
so you happy now..?
another thing is...
i came home and my dad was like...
17 years... cant we really communicate properly..?
is there a problem between us..?
i decided not to quarrel with him this time...
but instead i feel sad... why cant we resolve things in a calmer way..?
tired of explaining myself to you when you would not even hear...
anyway i shall stop here... dun wana elaborate anymore... DAMN IT chunkit!!! you are not a girl... stop whinning like one... no wonder people say... haix... maybe i am selfish and asked for too much... i ask for more than enough and take things for granted..?
>.<