Tuesday, April 29, 2008
since when did i become so weak..? too be updated..
just like victoria ceras who sank her fangs to taste blood for the first time, i'm gona bury myself in books and notes to...
posted at 8:26 PM
Monday, April 28, 2008
on the way home on the train today, kanta and zhi han was having a conversation about some random games.. to which i added.. must be like me, dun play games, whole day just sleep.. kanta was saying if we look back in life, mine will be the most wasted cuz i spent all my time sleeping -.- i will have all the time i want in the world to sleep when i die.. oh wells..
i think mangas and animes play a part in my life and in some way or another has influenced how i lead my life.. for instance characters that like to sleep and eat alot (think goku, luffy, allen walker, naruto) oh nos! but is this really me? or am i just following? i dun even know who i am myself..
tuesdays with morrie is a very emo book -.- i stopped reading halfway.. sigh.. i think i will be spending my whole life wondering what's life all about (ya i know that sounds lame)
funny thing is why didnt i pick up the plus points that the characters portray? do i expect myself, who is so weak, to suddenly break through all the barriers and reach the top? once again, i wonder where did i place God in my life...
is there any point in seeking answers to..
posted at 9:23 PM
Sunday, April 27, 2008
bokuwa.. bokuwa.. bokuwa FULL-TIME STUDENT dez..!
take a peek into chunkit's mind:
in a case of manga overdosed, i came to the conclusion that..
we are the monkey crew! ^^
zhihan=luffy
kanta=franky
lekwei=usopp
alex=sanji
jerome=chopper
chunkit=brook
pengxiang=zoro
melvin=???
clement=???
gerald=???
for those who dun read one piece, well u wun not know what i am talking about..
for those who read one piece, well u probably wun know my classmates..
i guess this is a boliao post! :D
posted at 7:20 PM
Thursday, April 24, 2008
(the bus-stop outside CCAB..)
today, i learned a little more about hockey..
could i have defended a little bit better?
all i yearn for was your recognition.. oh well i guess it does not matters anyway.. i got the hardworking look sia.. is time to put it to good use..
posted at 9:20 PM
Monday, April 21, 2008
why do i mug?
for who do i mug for?
how do i mug?
do i mug because i resent being inferior?
or do i mug because i like mugging?
perhaps i should not ask so many questions which seems nonsensical to others (but not to me!) and does not lead me to answers that i am seeking for..
desperately clinging on to threads of
memories which binds us together
lest times have failed us in future..
posted at 9:06 PM
Friday, April 18, 2008
sigh..
is gona take some time for me to forgive myself..
i let us down
we let ourselves down
only consolation is that we underdogs put up a good fight and upset the powerhouses..
posted at 8:15 PM
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
we have a great team. but still, we lost. it's sad. the pain is hurting me.
right from the start, it should been like this when i stepped into jjc:
1) join and become one of their 'leaders'.
(become a facilitator for all of their camps)
2) study and mug hard for every bloody tests
(be a teacher's pet)
that's all.. you dun need any other unnecessary stuffs in your jc life.
by achieving the two points stated above, at the end of your two years,
you will have:
1) a good testimonial with lots and lots of cip hours
2) good results lah! (what else?)
but right now, my jc life is over.. is so bloody screwed up
posted at 8:12 PM
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
SHOOT-SHAG -MARRY!!! :D
the three botak monks... in the box!
HAHA :D
zhihan had the pleasure of cutting my hair before i go and shave
lek wei was drooling while falling asleep after mugging too much for physics test..
now this is what i call hardworking! after lecture has ended and everyone left zhihan and jerome were still studying maths! :D
first match tml.. quite worried.. oh wells..
posted at 8:29 PM
Sunday, April 13, 2008
our groundbreaker, Pierre de Coubertin; who revived the modern Olympics, once said:
"The most important thing in the Olympic Games is not to win but to take part, just as the most important thing in life is not the triumph but the struggle. The essential thing is not to have conquered but to have fought well."
and true to our groundbreaker's ideal, we are proud of getting B!
even though an A would be beter, but..
is the process of working together that we cherish,
is not about winning but about the difficulties that we had overcome
and most importantly of all, we fought well :)
posted at 9:30 PM
Thursday, April 10, 2008
trust team jj
trust coach
trust your team mates
trust your hockey stick
the pride of a jj hockey player 07/08..
coach finally came down for our last training session
scold us like siao.. lols..
should have started training us like this earlier..
haha..
posted at 9:14 PM
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
i seldom have any normal conversations with my dad which a son will have with his father..
unless you want to include the times when he rambles about the past after being intoxicated by some alcohol.. (he claims he was not drunk! lols)
it so happened that i was late for school today and saw him at the station..
even though it was less than 5 mins, i cherish it a lot.....
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please hockey stick, dun give up on me!!
feeling dulan yet again..
i hope this feeling will go away after i shave bald..
posted at 6:38 PM
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
An ebony darkness that dyes the sky red...
randomness:
i want Calvin Kline's briefs!!! :D :D :D
posted at 8:13 PM
Monday, April 7, 2008
amidst the burning incense and paper notes,
those who have dearly left us are still deeply etched in our memories..
when we die, we simply just die.
knocking on heaven's door anyone?
posted at 5:10 PM
Sunday, April 6, 2008
"The culture we have does not make people feel good about themselves. And you have to be strong enough to say if the culture doesn't work, don't buy it."
posted at 12:08 AM
Friday, April 4, 2008
the dawn is breaking..
find myself quite scary..
alternating between bouts of crestfallen and euphoria
is like a walking timed-bomb
never knowing of how from one moment, i might change to the next moment..
ran with zhihan just now..
from chinatown to the durians..
he's a very good coach lah..
got to run faster..
left 8 days to starting anew..
must make sure that i'm geared up for it..
dan i can bang on the momentum..
"is better to be hated for who you are than to be loved for who you are not"
as quoted by corine..
posted at 6:25 PM
Thursday, April 3, 2008
i think that while it is a student's duty to study and be responsible for his results, teachers play a very great role too..
it is not just to facilitate the student in the subject, but also, to pass on the passion that they have for the subject..
after attending today's lecture on vectors by mr.wee, i realised how fortunate i am for having mr.lee as my maths tuition teacher..
his enthusiasm for maths is really something which will inspire me to do better for the subject..
if not for having a chance of attending his tuition class, i would not know how to survive this crazy life in jc now..
in this competitive and results oriented academic system, i feel very tied down by the increasing pressure to perform and the inability to do it..
i'm having remediation in sch for maths, chem and gp..
wtf
that leaves econs as the only subject which i do need to see the teacher outside curriculum time..
this sucks..
especially so when i know my econs aint doing very well either..
used to thought that 405 was competitive..
never thought of getting single digit for every tests..
but now what feared the most happened..
unbelievable!
i think perspectives are very important..
the way you see things will determine how you response to it and in return you will get the result of what you have chosen..
some may say you are so lucky.. got teachers to help you.. etc.. i only complain.. blah blah..
yeah i know it is true..
whining does not help much..
i'm grateful to those who have helped me..
maybe i'm just going through a rough period of time?
but still i do not like the way how i handled it..
there's just this animosity that's coursing through me..
do i have enough time before it is too late?
worrying does not help..
i know..
but what to do? it is affecting me a lot.. do not want it to make me break down..
damn confused lah..
no one to look up to and follow..
instead i'm the one who must set a good example, being the eldest in the family.. blah blah blah..
i think at each stage of life, there will be an obstacle present..
and the way you face it will mark your level of maturity..
currently i think that i simply sucks..
is the whole mental game..
if your mentality is 'i'm gonna win'
than when you set yourself in doing something and you really believe hard enough that you are going to win, you are simply, going to win
but conversely, if you think you cant do anything, i.e 'i'm going to lose', therefore, i am really going to lose..
simple
as simple as that
i wish one day, when i wake up, i do not worry anymore
my mind is blank but i'm not dumb enough to not know how to study
than since my mind is blank, i can simply just absorb everything i read..
this reminds me of carine..
at the beginning of j1 where we used to take the same bus after school, i can tell (from my conversations with her) that her personality then is completely different as of now..
ragh.. randomness..
back to what i was saying..
however, i know that it is different in the world that we live in..
i cant pray that i'll be smart and that i'll ace through my exams without any difficulties..
just like leadership/courage cant be shown unless there are times of danger
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God didnt promise sunshine without rain...
didnt expect my self to blog so much..
posted at 7:01 PM
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
the bar has been raised..
what i thought to be hardworking does not seems to pay off cuz everybody is 'hardworking' too -.-
that makes your own hardwork alone never enough
better still, they still can find time to enjoy life..
as if what i perceived as hardworking is what they will perceive as normal to them..
as for me, i dun even work hard (wtf?!)
so you can see how far i have been crumbling behind..
i sucks..
you know animes like d gray man, bleach and rurouni kenshin where the characters like allen walker, uruhara and kenshin who look like they are so harmless and carefree in life but actually beneath the facade, they are actually quite powerful?
how i wish i was like one of them..
feel that my life has been probably quite screwed up..
maybe i'm missing God
sigh...
can a lost sheep ever finds his way and get back onto the right track?
this lost sheep is just so tired of it..
oh well.. God is sovereign.
submitting things into Your hands
and i pray that Your grace is sufficient for me to live in this topsy-curvy utopia..
posted at 8:39 PM