i think that while it is a student's duty to study and be responsible for his results, teachers play a very great role too..
it is not just to facilitate the student in the subject, but also, to pass on the passion that they have for the subject..
after attending today's lecture on vectors by mr.wee, i realised how fortunate i am for having mr.lee as my maths tuition teacher..
his enthusiasm for maths is really something which will inspire me to do better for the subject..
if not for having a chance of attending his tuition class, i would not know how to survive this crazy life in jc now..
in this competitive and results oriented academic system, i feel very tied down by the increasing pressure to perform and the inability to do it..
i'm having remediation in sch for maths, chem and gp..
wtf
that leaves econs as the only subject which i do need to see the teacher outside curriculum time..
this sucks..
especially so when i know my econs aint doing very well either..
used to thought that 405 was competitive..
never thought of getting single digit for every tests..
but now what feared the most happened..
unbelievable!
i think perspectives are very important..
the way you see things will determine how you response to it and in return you will get the result of what you have chosen..
some may say you are so lucky.. got teachers to help you.. etc.. i only complain.. blah blah..
yeah i know it is true..
whining does not help much..
i'm grateful to those who have helped me..
maybe i'm just going through a rough period of time?
but still i do not like the way how i handled it..
there's just this animosity that's coursing through me..
do i have enough time before it is too late?
worrying does not help..
i know..
but what to do? it is affecting me a lot.. do not want it to make me break down..
damn confused lah..
no one to look up to and follow..
instead i'm the one who must set a good example, being the eldest in the family.. blah blah blah..
i think at each stage of life, there will be an obstacle present..
and the way you face it will mark your level of maturity..
currently i think that i simply sucks..
is the whole mental game..
if your mentality is 'i'm gonna win'
than when you set yourself in doing something and you really believe hard enough that you are going to win, you are simply, going to win
but conversely, if you think you cant do anything, i.e 'i'm going to lose', therefore, i am really going to lose..
simple
as simple as that
i wish one day, when i wake up, i do not worry anymore
my mind is blank but i'm not dumb enough to not know how to study
than since my mind is blank, i can simply just absorb everything i read..
this reminds me of carine..
at the beginning of j1 where we used to take the same bus after school, i can tell (from my conversations with her) that her personality then is completely different as of now..
ragh.. randomness..
back to what i was saying..
however, i know that it is different in the world that we live in..
i cant pray that i'll be smart and that i'll ace through my exams without any difficulties..
just like leadership/courage cant be shown unless there are times of danger
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God didnt promise sunshine without rain...
didnt expect my self to blog so much..