last day of july 2008..
tonight i've fallen and i cant get up
i need your loving hands to come and pick me up
the 3Us shit is huanting me forever.. fuck
pon school, get good grades equals good boy
pon school, get lousy grades equals bad boy
two different outcomes with very different endings
end it with style man
i need a drug to keep me addicted to studying
and ignore the stuffs which my mind has been thinking
as i drift into the state of loneliness again
sigh...
no hope, no love, no glory,
no happy ending.
we cant change the cards we are dealt,
just how we play the hand.
"The brick walls are there for a reason... to show us how badly we want something, because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don't want it badly enough. They're there to stop the other people."
i'm pathetic.. should not have allowed my emotions to take over me.. it was a moment of foolishness and i created a mess way worse than before.. sigh.. oh well at least i let you know how i felt.. but i really should not have done it through that way.. zzz..
"...what makes a person the same person through life is the accumulating set of memories he carries with him. when these are lost, he ceases to be that person and becomes someone else, new and as yet unformed."
happy birthday?
by jerome sng a.k.a gp shen:
Laugh and the world
laughs with you.
Cry and the world
laughs at you.
what the heck am i doing man?
surrender yourself to God and trust that He's in control of everything
Zzz...
Immorality.
is yours,
take it.
sigh.. and so my jc life is nearing it's end soon..
looking back, i think i had not really performed well enough to match my teachers' standards.. like mr and mrs kao, mr low and mr lee.. werent anyone of their noticeable students anyway.. nothing worthy of mentioning..
haven play hockey for quite awhile.. bring back those days man.. my skills suck a lot now lah.. but i mastered shooting though..
according to mr hong that's our last time entering a lab unless we take up a science course in U.. finally is over sia.. chem spa is so daunting.. screw it.. i remembered the first chem pract we tried to pon it.. we were halfway out of school when mr hong suddenly called one of us.. got a little scared when he wanted to reprimand us.. thinking back i find it quite hysterical..
hmmm.. clouds hanging above jj? lol..
when it's over, i'll take you back to the start..
all the way to the top now..
because I'm scared alright?
I'm afraid..
suddenly failure does not seems so dreadful after all
er..
it rained (yet again -.-) on my last youth day
nothing much
went to catch a movie with kanta in the morning
and met philip in the afternoon
pangseh alex
paiseh
turning 18 soon
dun feel like it
must try to act more mature
who am i kidding?
mugging season started long ago
why am i stagnating?
it's just tears and rain..
i'm dispensable in 07s32..
they dun really need me..
shit do i have an attitude problem?